Anonimo asked: dear exboyfriend
Ohh, I don’t know which one to write about… I suppose the one I have unfinished business with?
I wish you just told the truth. I get that the situation with my family that you were suddenly dealing with was a lot, but you could have told me the truth. “This is a lot to deal with, Adam, and I don’t know if I could be there for you,” would have been a lot better than, “Oh, I have to move back to Arizona because of some tax laws…” It’s more genuine, and has more feeling. We both knew that that tax shit wasn’t going to be resolved, and it was just an excuse.
But, to be fair, I should have ended it the moment I became afraid of your outbursts. Obviously I didn’t, and I kept trudging the relationship along. The moment you threatened to go out and sleep with a man if I ever saw my friend Tim again, I should have been like, “Nope, not gonna do this.” But I didn’t. Because I was foolish, and thought that love would fix everything. God, I was always so scared of what you would do.
Anyway, you said you were going to move back here. I wonder if you did? I always feel like I see you in my periphery, but part of that’s probably just me being paranoid. Every time I see a Chevy Blazer in that tan color, my heart does… something. I hold my breath. If you are back, I wish you would tell me. So we could try and be friends or something?
You always talked about moving back to Peru, though. I wonder if you did that? Your father would be happy.
I hope you found stability and happiness. I really do.